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Nov. 29th, 2010 | 01:01 pm
mood: frustratedfrustrated

So this Fall I started my first year of graduate school. So far so good? Not really. It has only been the first 3 months of the program, and I feel just crap about everything. What have I gotten myself into again? I know that all of the things I have learned so far has had nothing to do with my undergraduate coursework. Talk about readjustments, this is just completely just too much. I wish I could skip to next july and take neuroscience and be done with coursework and continue to start my laboratory work. Frustrating thing is that common sense for others is not common sense for me....and so ya bitch rant is over.
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PMX'06

Oct. 30th, 2006 | 11:34 pm
location: UCSD
mood: chipperchipper
music: Dir en Grey-Kodou

Last weekend was such a great break from midterms. I was lucky enough to attend PMX in LA and cosplay, mingle with my friends, go to concerts, and look at pretty people. It was so much fun~~ Mike Moody and I carpooled back to my house, met up with Anne, then we were off to LA. On friday night, we basically just got way too much sugar in our systems~~ i didn't even know how I managed to get up at 6 in the morning after finally going to bed at 3am. The NOIZ concert was AWESOME! They were so funny! I was standing close to the guitarist, and i was able to get a guitar pick...WOOT WOOT~ Then the big star of the convention was OLIVIA~~ Her dress was so gorgeous, she is so pretty...~~ Her music is mellow and slower, so it was a pretty good ending of the day I guess. Anyways, I love conventions, and i can't wait for AX next summer!!
since i have already forgot how to use lj cut again, i'll post picts up later~~

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so a decision has been made...

Jul. 5th, 2006 | 12:25 pm
mood: blahblah
music: Clever Sleaziod- Dir en Grey

ya, i guess we are going to do cage for the conventions next year...this requires some PVC/Vinyl working for me. I don't think its gonna be that bad for me, I am actually worried about Enna's costume instead......too many ruffles and folds 0.o Back on my diet again for comic con, lets see how this goes.......

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Plans for Next Con

Jul. 4th, 2006 | 10:09 am
mood: relaxedrelaxed

Ya, I know it sounds a little bit early, but next year I am planning to do a group Dir en Grey cosplay again~~ I really want to do something easy, but my buddy really like challenges, and thats fine too. Except for the fact that the sewing machine at my house does not agreee with any forms of vinyl or PVC.......what do u expect me to do. BTW i know yesterday's post was a litte bit messed up with lj cut and everything, so i'll more careful this time to make sure it works out fine. Anyhow here are the candidates for next years Dir en Grey stuff.





and so basically .....these are her ideal costumes...I personally want to do something easier like....Ain't Afraid to Die. We were planning on Myaku or we can do Raison D'etre cuz Enna has the Toshiya already. So ..i dunno.....

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Jul. 3rd, 2006 | 05:15 pm
mood: cheerfulcheerful
music: Illuminati-Malice Mizer

This year's AX is probably the best I have gone to for a long time. Usually this con is ok because of the lack of Jrock cosplayers ....and there less than i expected this year too. Well even though I WAS NOT prepared costume wise this year because I wasn't sure that I was even gonna go, I went sat. and sun. The Day 0 was the day I went to pick up my badge and Lauran lend Enna and I her lolita stuff~~ We spend an hour or  2 with Bix from AZ and it was awesome to see her, Zara and Chibi again. 

Day 1 was craaazy! Enna and I arrived early so I could start my online class exam....-_-....the convention center didn't have wireless service so we ended going to the marriot to take my test. Then we got to the con and we didn't really know what to do because we didn't have the chance to meet up with our friends yet, so at the end we decided to go to the MANA panel at 2:30. Yes, Mana  of Moi dix Mois, the GOD of Gothic Lolita and JRock was a guest of honor. Seeing him in person was such a surreal experience. He talked through a translator (yes with his hand over his mouth), answering questions from fans with respect and grace. So basically, what i learned from the panel is that he loves to go to the movies and cook....XD!! Going to his panel allowed us to get an autograph from the man himself. I had to go downstairs to get Gothic lolita bibles because Enna and i didn't have ANYTHING  to sign. We waited for about....2-3 hours for our turn, and got an amazing autograph, and  a handshake.  By the time that we finished, we couldn't go into the dealer's room no more....T^T they closed at 6pm, so Enna and I went back to our rooms and chilled by taking off our make up and switching back to lolita for a mini gathering.

Day 2 was our last day already T^T! I went casual because I don't like wearing things twice. Enna cosplayed Taiyo no Ao Toshiya, and did a great job. We started off the day by taking some pictures, waiting for Bix to get ready with their PLC stuff. Then later, we finally got into the dealer's room and explored the booths. I finally found the Jrock booths and most of the stuff on my list weren't there. So i spend ALL of my $$ on 6 piece Dir en Grey poster, 2 Dir en Grey shirts ( one for Enna and one for me). In addition to that, i already spend $20 dollars for the 2 day parking so there waas only about 20 bucks left. According to one of the girls at Jpop House, 2 members of the band 12012 are coming for photo/autograph session....and holy shit, there goes the other 20 Dollars. I really don't know that band, but it was so worth the wait and the pictures. Those guys were so hot.....~~ Wataru was ok looking in person, but Hiroaki.. ...holy crap!! So you never know, I met Jrockers, and got 2 autographs and had so much fun!! can't wait for the next convention!! PMX is now moved to october, i dunno if i can make it....DARN SCHOOL!!!





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testing

Jul. 3rd, 2006 | 03:40 pm

My testing scan~

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Finally updating again!

Jul. 3rd, 2006 | 03:04 pm

I am so bad at keeping journals~~ i'll try harder and commit! anyways, summer is here and therefore i feel a tiny bit better than usual. pretty uneventful because i am taking an online class and everything...except going to conventions and cosplaying and all that~~ omg AX was so good this year, at least for me~ i'll post another journal report later today. nowdays i am determined to be a good cosplayer. i didn't have anything new to wear this year, and forgot to ask my sister to take pictures of myself,...so i basically have no new pictures at all! anyways, i really want to do something nice and simple with minimal amount of work, but my friends really like to do challenging stuff. I mean of course thats the best part about cosplaying, but i don't think i have the time to really do it during school!! so i dunno. anyhow, i'll update as sooon as i can when i figure out how to do lj cuts and all.

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another be-lated update

May. 21st, 2006 | 09:27 pm
mood: disappointeddisappointed

so ya, my dieting is not working out, i feel like that i don't care anymore. i am fatter than ever...i dunno, i have a hard time resisting the temptations if you know what i mean. my parents are worrying about my sister because she is worse, askin me for help, and i don't know what to say to them. sometimes your are tired of life, just really sick of it. thats one of the reasons y i don't want to have kids, if they go through their life thinking that they are not good enough, i wouldn't know what to do. for other people, they have a girlfriend or a boyfriend telling them that they are ok the way they are, and i don't even have that someone. one of the friends at home just started a relationship. i'm kinda envious, not jealous because ihaven't seen him before or even know him, but just envious because she has someone else in her life now. for me, i am just the girl at work who is not as skinny as her sister.......i try to take pictures of myself, i realize that i don't know how to smile..well, i look stupid every single time. my skin is bad, the fat on my body is disgusting. i guess nowdays i am trying to rationalize everything, but sometimes when reality kicks in, i really break down...

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The things..

May. 6th, 2006 | 11:29 am
mood: awakeawake
music: n/a

For 2 days i have been thinking about the things i miss about New Zealand....there are a few things...but none in particular rank and order....i just wish i could go back again..

the things i miss...
-watching the All Blacks play rugby
-pot pies!.....mince and cheese pot pie
-vegemite spread
-fish and chips
-the butcher paper that wraps fish and chips
-nice green grass....
-the ever changing weather
-christchurch
-melford sound (i proly spelled that wrong)
-mini road side dairy store
-cheap frozen vegetables
-cheap yoplait yogurt

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ya i know..

Apr. 24th, 2006 | 05:35 pm

yes, i know i haven;t been updating for a while, its because i am in denial. ever since i gained 3 lbs from spring break, i am not able to get it off. each day is brutal...i feel like giving up...i actually have given up....i have been eating junk food more than ever....this is drainin my energy...i am going to go to a weight loss center off campus ...i don't care....if they reject me, then i realy dont' know what to say....
i realized how lonely i am...again...because i don't have no friends at school...my great friend Tess is leaving, my other friends commute, and the only friend from high school doesn't respond.....i dunno why. tomorrow is room selection, and everyone knows whom they want to room with..except me.....i feel so empty again...i don't want to do school.....i want to have that committment to starve,...but i am so weak.....why am i so weak...i can't control my food...i can't do this ...!! my sister isn't around anymore...so ya...that is sad....sighs*

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